Taking Back What Was Stolen

Joy filled to be taking back ground the enemy thought he’d forever stollen from me.

All the things I was told I shouldn’t do cause I was horrible at it and not smart enough, or good enough or worth enough…..Papa is giving me the opportunity to refind joy in these things where sadness has been for sooo long…..I had been ripped out of school before high school told couldn’t do it, it’s for smart kids…..was told to stop singing I sounded awful and Jesus only wants to here people that can actually carry a toon. While the worship leader in our house continued to participate in abusing me then sing to Jesus after….I was yelled at for offering to pray with other kids in the facility I’d been sent to and eventually kept in confinement……but God!

Now I am in school with a 3.89 GPA, I am singing and playing music again, and sharing God’s word freely with anyone who will hear….thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus, Thank You Jesus!

Remembering God’s Grace

My published poem, written in February 2002 along with a part of my story made it in our county news paper. The poem simply titled “HE” is autobiographical and showed the mental torment in my mind due to the abuse occurring, during an otherwise horrifying time in my life, and how much of an oxymoron love and abuse together are. Even after this published, without knowing who I was in Christ abuse continued to be a normal part of my life. It was during this season of life that I lost my oldest son to one of my abusers bringing me to a place of despair and a very dark time of no longer caring what happened to me. Only by the grace of God and His hand continually on my life have I not only been set free, but also am learning there is no shame in my story, just a shining example of His love, strength and glory. I am God’s forever thankful daughter, redeemed, clean and forever free in HIM.

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He bites you, but he loves you

He hits you, but he loves you

He urinates on you, but he loves you

He throws things at you, but he loves you

He pulls your hair out, but he loves you

He rams your back and head into things, but he loves you

He rapes you constantly, but he loves you

He defiles even your mind, but he loves you

He grabs and flings you into things, but he loves you

He strangles you, but he loves you

He pulls a knife on you, but he loves you

He threatens to kill you and chop you in pieces, but he loves you

He threatens to harm your family if you try to leave, but he loves you

He’s no respecter of children in your arms, but he loves you

He tries to help you out of a second story window, but he loves you

He wants a gun for your head, but he loves you

He constantly stalks and harasses when you finally leave, but he loves you

He kidnaps and holds your child hostage until you return, but he loves you

He frightens and pays people off to stay away from you, but he loves you

He violates court orders then fakes strokes to get out of the consequences, but he loves you.

It takes a special underground protection program to finally make you safe, but he loves you.


“I am born of God and the evil one (the devil) cannot touch me”

“I am born of God and the evil one (the devil) cannot touch me”

We know that no one who is born of God sins; but He who was born of God keeps him and the evil one does not touch him. (1 John 5:19)

Yes, I know this is a weighty topic to some, so right off the bat I’m going to add some more scripture.

No one who is born of God practices sin, because HIS seed abides in him; and cannot sin, because he is born of God. (1 John 3:9)

The Lord Jesus Christ abides in you and He does not sin

I am writing to you, little children, because your sins have been forgiven you for His name’s sake. I am writing to you, fathers, because you know Him (Jesus) who has been from the beginning. I am writing to you, young men, because you have overcome the evil one. I have written to you, children, because you know the Father. I have written to you, fathers, because you know Him who has been from the beginning. I have written to you, young men, because you are strong, and the word of God abides in you, and you have overcome the evil one. (1 John 2:12-14)

Jesus over came the evil one at the cross, and when He rose again he sent satan into a tizzy because the battle was over, death had lost. One might think well yes that’s true, but hes still quite the disruptive force. I may step on a toe or two here, but hes only disruptive because hes being allowed to be. As a child of God satan cant hurt you, he still whispers and tries like with Eve to get you to listen to his lies and distortions, but it really is as simple as telling him to shut up in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He (Jesus) that is in you than he that is in the world. (1 John 4:4)

When He had disarmed the rulers and authorities. He made a public display of them, having triumphed over them through Him (Jesus) (Colossians 2:15)

See the battle is won, we stand from a place of victory in Christ our untouchable refuge.

“I am free forever from condemnation”

“I am free forever from condemnation”

Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1)

What is condemnation? The expression of strong disapproval, the act of condemning someone to severe punishment.

When Jesus took our sins upon Himself at the cross, he also took our death sentence away, it is true in Romans 3:23 when it says All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. All deserve a death sentence and Jesus took it for us nailing our sin to the cross so our sins are remembered no more.

Well okay Melissa, you might say, but why do we still feel that tinge of pain when we do “wrong”? It’s one of two reasons……

1. Conviction from the Holy Spirit dwelling in us loving on us and saying wow this isn’t good for you I long to protect you from this.

2. Satan is the father of lies and he enjoys accusing the brethren day and night, and at time we listen to him instead of Papa.

So what am I saying? Well I’ll let the word of God say it for me….

This is the covenant I will make with them after those days says the Lord: I will put my laws upon their heart, and on their mind I will write them,” He then says AND THEIR SINS AND LAWLESS DEEDS I WILL REMEMBER NO MORE. (Hebrews 10:16,17)

And Romans 8 wraps up with this….

“What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies; who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us. Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? Just as it is written, ” FOR YOUR SAKE WE ARE BEING PUT TO DEATH ALL DAY LONG; WE WERE CONSIDERED AS SHEEP TO BE SLAUGHTERED.” But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:31-39‬ ‭

I Have Been Made Complete in Christ

I have been made complete in Christ

For in Him all the fullness of Deity dwells in bodily form, and in Him you have been made complete, and He is the head over all rule and authority; and in Him you were also circumcised with a circumcision made without hands, in the removal of the body of the flesh by the circumcision of Christ. (Colossians 2:9-11)

I know many including myself a time or two, jump immediately to what could this mean? We then take an unnecessary long look at our short comings. If this is you today I have great news.

God doesn’t see us the way we view ourselves, when Papa looks at us, He sees us as new creations, partakers of His divine nature and more than conquerors over our faults…..how is this possible?

Through the Lord Jesus Christ and Him alone!

Not only does God see us as lacking nothing and fully complete in Jesus, He also wants us to see ourselves this way.

To be complete means to have ALL the necessary parts!

“blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has (past tense meaning already done) blessed us with every spiritual blessing in heavenly places in Christ. (Ephesians 1:3)

Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved complete, without blame at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Thessalonians 5:23)

For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren; and these whom He predestined, He also called; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified.

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? (Romans 8:29-31)

I have been given a spirit of power, love and self-discipline

I have been given a spirit of power, love and self-discipline

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)

This verse can be wrapped up in a single sentence…..

God gave us the indwelling Holy Spirit, who is not fearful, has the same power Jesus does, acts out of His love for us and guides us to Christ like decisions.

So what does this mean for us as God’s kids?

It means God, our Papa and Creator, has put in us, (those who have said yes to Jesus’ beautiful free gift) His very Spirit.

If Christ is in you, though the body is dead because of sin, yet the spirit is alive because of righteousness.

But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you. (Romans 8:10,11)

So we need not be timid or afraid, or live any longer according to the flesh, in fact if that is where your desires are you haven’t died yet. I know that’s a strong statement but when we accept Christ we die, and He now lives, in and through us, we aren’t our own anymore.

So then, brethren, we are under obligation, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh for if you are living according to the flesh, you must die; but if by the Spirit you are putting to death the deeds of the body, you will live.

For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.

For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out, “Abba! Father!”

The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God, (Romans 8:12-16

I Am A Saint

“I am a saint”

Paul an apostle of Christ Jesus, by the will of God to the saints who are in Ephesus and who are faithful in Christ Jesus. (Ephesians 1:1)

Believers in Jesus Christ are referred to as saints throughout the NT, so what exactly is a “saint”?

The word saint is #40 in the AMG’s Annotated Strong’s Dictionary and says these beautiful things for what being a saint means…….”pure, upright, blameless in heart and life, virtuous, holy, those who have been purified and justified through Christ Jesus.”

Continuing on in Ephesians 1 we hear Paul encouraging the saints (his brothers and sisters in Christ)

For this reason I too, having heard of the faith in the Lord Jesus which exists among you and your love for all the saints, do not cease giving thanks for you, while making mention of you in my prayers; that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of Him. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of the strength of His might which He brought about in Christ, when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the one to come. (Ephesians 1:15-21)

Notice in these verses and as we journey through the New Testament, the minute we accept the Lord Jesus Christ we become a saint, and are from then out referred to by our new identity in Jesus as child, heir, saint, holy, righteous, and so on….

and as one of my mentors, Dan Camp says “we are not sinners by identity any more, we are saints who occasionally sin, not sinners saved by the Grace of God. We WERE sinners, but not ever again based on who we are in Christ.”

Can’t be pure and dirty at the same time….and if we died and are raised with Christ and our identity comes from Him, I don’t desire to call myself anything negative again.