Have you ever been doing something completely mindless and then a light goes off in your brain and something finally makes complete sense?
Today I had one of the “ah ha” moments. It was while playing one of these odd games my children are so fascinated with and insisted I’d enjoy too. While planting plants to battle the zombies a Scripture bounced into my head….huh? Lord what does that have to do with learning this game? lol nothing of course but my mind was finally at rest enough to hear it.
“But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
1 Samuel 16:7
Hmmm ok, Lord I remember when yah sent Samuel and all of David’s brothers seemed like prime candidates to be the next King, yet You saw David’s heart and chose him, what am I not seeing?
Then a phrase jumped into my head “they weren’t trying to kill your body but crush/kill your Spirit the very one I gave you”
For me this this brings on laughter because it’s the one thing they haven’t been able to demolish not from anything I’ve done to preserve it but sheerly by the grace of God. I stumble lots, fall flat on my face often in fact and like David I’m small, not intimidating and filled with flaws but the God living within me that I cling to with all my hope, HE fights for me when I’m laid out flat, face first in the dirt, why? Because He knows my heart, that I know my strength is inadequate and His is not only greatly needed but welcomed. That is what they have been trying to stomp out all this time because to them it makes no sense for me to keep getting back up and not only refusing to quit but insisting on thriving. It’s simple really but something unsurrendered eyes are blind to. The Word of God says “Greater is HE who is in me than he who is in the world” from my outward appearance I should of quit by now but if they could see Who is inside, if they’d allow their hearts to soften for just a moment, oh the joy and freedom they would find, because HE who lives in me, loves them too and I just know that love once they saw it would melt their anger hatred away.
Until that day, when their eyes are opened, two thing I know need doing, one I must pray for their hearts to open and remember it’s not me they really hate.