(Natalie Grant)

“I see shattered
You see whole
I see broken
But You see beautiful
And You’re helping me to believe
You’re restoring me piece by piece

There’s nothing too dirty
That You can’t make worthy
You wash me in mercy
I am clean
There’s nothing too dirty
That You can’t make worthy
You wash me in mercy
I am clean

What was dead now lives again
My heart’s beating, beating inside my chest
Oh I’m coming alive with joy and destiny
‘Cause You’re restoring me piece by piece

There’s nothing too dirty
That You can’t make worthy
You wash me in mercy
I am clean
There’s nothing too dirty
That You can’t make worthy
You wash me in mercy
I am clean

Washed in the blood of Your sacrifice
Your blood flowed red and made me white
My dirty rags are purified
I am clean
I’m clean
Oh You made me, You wash me, Clean”

Powerful and profound come to mind when the lyrics of this song run through my head. My heart often responds differently to it each time.

Can it be? Papa is this so? While other times thinking yes, but not from this?

Inside cries saying Lord I know you have forgiven and made me clean of all my sins, the smallest to the worst, past, present and future ones, and I’m so thankful.

“Come now, and let us reason together,”

says the Lord,

“Though your sins are as scarlet,

They will be white as snow;

Thought they are red like crimson

They will be like wool

(Isaiah 1:18)

I rejoice over this, it even brings me to a place of forgiveness toward those who have harmed me in unspeakable ways, because I know these scriptures, apply to them too. God can and will clean their hearts making them whole when they come to Him in repentance which means desiring change or turning away from these evil things.

Left is what has been done to my body, mind and soul that makes me feel so filthy, not an easy one to mentally reconcile let me tell yah. Some say repent, hmmm well if that means to turn from…doesn’t quite apply, others have suggested confessing to God for participating in…… please don’t say that to a survivor, it implies there was a choice to be had, or a willingness to be defiled, trust me there was neither.

Often, in the Christian world, perhaps unintentionally the abused are further broken, because they already know their biblical need to forgive, yet are bludgeoned with it when they come forward seeking help, while hearing how their abuser, doesn’t know Jesus and needs to be shown grace.

I remember clearly the tornado of feelings and thoughts I had when dealt with in this manner after coming forward for help. My mind went from, guilt and condemnation heaped onto myself for being so wrong in coming forward, to… God likes the ones who aren’t His kids and hurt people more than the ones that love Him. Neither of these or any I had in between were correct, or likely intended by the people “helping”. I had come to them as my Christian family the one the Bible told me we would find refuge with, in a time where my literal family was doing the harm. In doing so rejection came from both sides, leaving me feeling quite betrayed and alone.

What is a better approach, a godly approach, how can we help another see wholeness and know they are clean too? That what has happened to them isn’t who they are, and that they are worthy too of love and being accepted in God’s family. I honestly don’t have all the answers to this, yet I know some things that have helped me personally right in God’s word. When I focus on these truths and who I am in Christ I can rest assured I am clean.

“For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the LORD will take me up.
I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.”
(Psalms‬ ‭27:10, 13-14‬)

“He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds.”
(Psalms‬ ‭147:3‬)

“The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.”
(Psalms‬ ‭23:1-6‬)

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ.”
(2 Corinthians‬ ‭1:3-5‬)

“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”
(Philippians‬ ‭1:6‬)

Beloved child of God there are many promises and truths of how God sees you, loves you and is with you always, in His word…..if you feel lost or hurting today, or are worn down from human response, please go straight to Papa ask Him to guide you into the truth, and send someone along side you for the journey.

If yah need prayer or have questions feel free to email me “Voice” at

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