I often feel like I’m a nuisance to the world and it would be better off without me. It’s not that I don’t love the people in it, my children, friends and such it’s simply an inability to grasp my purpose or meaning in life. Yes I know it’s to glorify God and be a light that shows the love of Jesus through me. I’m not negating that one bit….I won’t say life has been hard or easy, I recall more sad than happy, I feel that I’m inadequate when it comes to socialization and well most things. I’ve hadn’t known stability, or closeness to people until recently and it frightens and delights me all at once. Guessing all of this is okay, and giggle even now betting God uses me currently and I don’t even know it or something along those lines….at least I hope it’s so.